So I guess this Wednesday is a seminar on the internships avaliable for Tech-Com students at my school. And I'll be starting the "Getting an internship process." For some reason, this makes me nervous.

Well, its not "some" reason. Its for very specific reasons. Like, oh, say, moving out of the midwest for the first time. Or, say, living in an apartment by myself for the first time (yeah, it'd only be for 3 months. this is still a big deal to me, people). Or maybe its the fact that I might actually get to do what I want to do FOR A LIVING for a little while to test drive it. Maybe its that the END IS IN SIGHT and I am thismuch closer to graduating.

It's just that the internship, for me, represents one more step to being grown up. Out on my own. Starting my own life. I'm silly and am idealizing this whole thing, but I'm very excited and nervous and scared and a little sad too, because if I get the internship I want, it will mean being gone from my dearests for 3 months. I'm used to seeing them once a month. Though, with most of them out of town anyway, I'm sure it won't be that different. But I'll miss being in the same state. Does that make sense? Is that silly? I hope people visit.

I'm excited/nervous/scared too about starting completely new someplace. I'm a little afraid that without a starter person, I won't fit. I mean, I do fine at making friends, but a new place is like that first day at a new school when you don't know if you'll find somebody to eat lunch with. Maybe if I take my WonderWoman lunchbox, the cool kids will let me sit with them.

I'm getting ahead of myself, I know. Heh. Just watch. I'll end up getting an internship like, next door. "Yeah, um. I'm actually interning in my back yard. I'm currently helping one of the squirrels edit his memoirs. There was some tension at first when we debated whether or not 'nut-loving' was hyphinated. And we've had a few rough patches since then, but the commute time is awesome, so it totally makes up for it."

I'm not adverse to interning within the state, but I have it stuck in my head that it would be good for me if I explored other regions of the country. And then, of course there's studying abroad... but that's a topic for later.

We'll see.