In my previous post, I didn't fully express why it was SO reassuring to get to know a little better the side of the family I more readily identify with. Yes, it was nice to get confirmation that there are people out there who are actually quite a bit like me. But it also gave me a bit of a glimpse into the future. A very reassuring glimpse. See, all of my cousins on that side that are older than I am are in solid relationships and have children.

This would make sense, considering my grandparents were still hopelessly in love until they died. In fact, my paternal grandfather died on the same day as my grandmother, a year after she did.

And for the most part, I see the same tendancies in my relatives. They've picked intelligent, deeper thinking, gentle people and I can see the affection they have for each other in how they interact. They're all loving and dedicated parents as well. All of the children there were well spoken, bright, and outgoing little people.

I'm still not explaining it well, I'm too tired. But my point is this: if I'm as much like my cousins and aunts and uncle as I feel I am... I'm going to be ok. I'm not saying their relationships are perfect. But they've lasted quite a while and still seem happy. Yes, "seem" is subjective. But I can see it in their faces when they look at their mates that they are truely in love. I'm not saying they're mooning over each other or making out at every turn. But their deep affection for the other was apparent.

My assurance in this matter fluxuates, but as of right now, it's on an upswing. Sometimes I think I'll never meet someone who will really get me, or that would want to get me. But right now, I think I might just carry on the family tradition some day and be happy.